Memories

ok i fucked up last time hehe.. this is the good one

it's an interpretation of Gackt's December Love Song, English version, sorry about the lack of picks by the way...

The University's Admission Notice arrived today!! Woo!

The door bell woke me up, my dad yelled at me to go downstairs with an ID and I got such a beautiful shiny envelope from China with four beautiful shiny stamps haha and and the characters for Tongji University oooohh *squeals

Ah it is such a pretty beautiful thing, oh well, I just felt like posting that I don't need to deal with those stuuupid tourist visa application, now the University is doing it for me bwahahah AND it's a students visa ;) ooh I feel so accomplished hah !

Anyway for now I'm just waiting for youtube to hurry, pff..

Oh, looks like it's been a while since my last entry huh? I didn't even write a thing about my visit to The Netherlands! :o Shame on me! Oh well, I've told what happened so many times and I've thought about it over and over again that I really don't wanna write it down now.

All I gotta say is that it was the best week of my life, because I spent it with my deary husband ^^
Awww...

Anyway, I will dedicate this entry to ... China. Hah, well the thing is, after SO many problems that appeared every 15 minutes about this and that and the student's visa and the dorm rooms and the fact that nobody in the University seems to speak English... we (me and Veronica, since Norma is probably not going to go with us at the same time, but meet us there instead) decided to leave around February 10th, get the Tourist Visa for one month so we still have some days left after registration on February 27th, to change the Tourist into a Student Visa.

Pff.. it's such a big mess, it really is ridiculous all the things we have to go through!

Ugh u_u' but anyway, I thought that after making this decision everything would go smooth. Turns out I was wrong, oh I was SO wrong.

Look at the Physical Examination Record for Foreigner, for example:

-Do you have any of the following diseases?: (Each item must be answered 'yes' or 'no')
1. Toxicomania
2. Menial confusion (wtf is that? :|)
3. Manic Psychosis
4. Paranoid Psychosis
5. Hallucinatory Psychosis

Ok, that part is relatively easy, considering all you have to do is answer 'yes' or 'no'

But now this... is going to kill me soon. Apparently the next part is for you to fill in the answer, such as follows:

Height: _____ cm
Weight: _____ kg

Okay, that is easy to fill in of course, but what exactly am I supposed to write in the following:

Development: (wtf)
Vision: (eh.. alright?)
Colour sense: (got it)
Ears: (two)
Heart: (one, ... it still works)
Nourishment: (as in, vegetarian?)
Skin: (it's still there)
Nose: (one)
Lungs: (two)
Neck: (one, mind you very pretty)
Eyes: (two)
Lymph nodes: (eh.. sure)
Tonsils: (stil there?)
Abdomen: (oh that one's there)
Spine: (let me go check... yeah, still there)
Extremities: (four of them I think... can't be really sure)
Nervous system: (nervous alright.. shit)

>.<

I don't get it! And when I go to the embassy I have to stay in line for over an hour and when I get to the desk the chinese lady goes: "Fill in form" and she hands me a form, I go "No, thank you, I come for information..." and she goes "Fill in form" and then I go "but lady, I just need to know if--" and she goes "no information! no information, fill in form! NEXT!"

:|

Ugh and why did I pick China?

Oh right.. it's so cheap.

... I am so close to getting depressed again, and this isn't helping me lower the amount of cigarettes a day either, ahh the things I have to do just to get away from my father's wife u_u' I should just get a Mamba

I'm pissed, I wake up at 8 am, I don't eat anything all morning ,I spent from 10 am to 1 pm drinking coffee without smoking because my throat hurts and when I come home, the only thing I wanna do is have a nice lunch, and the LAST thing I want is a fucking corn soup with chopped onions! ONIONS! *bile*

You're a Shy Kisser

You *do* love to kiss, once your comfortable with it And that means knowing the person you're kissing pretty well You usually don't make the first move when it comes to making out But you've got plenty of intensity in return

Pff, pretty weird, what the hell am I doing taking this kind of tests ? :P
Oh well, I was very honest this time and it turned out being something eh.. quite different to what I thought, or to the way I was I think ^^

Bleh.

Shall we say I'm a bit jealous? Yes.

Pfff it's a ridiculous amount of time since my last post, Yahel left school to begin with, and my bond with Veronica only grew stronger, we have become great friends.

My pumpkin is just so sweet, and amazing and I so love him haha yeah I do :)))))

But the REALLY BIG news is that I'm moving to China on February to study for two years the language. Yeah huh.

Gran cambio a lo pendejo!

Anywaay, pretty much everything is the same, Michelle has become horny haha so well, Nancy is a bit upset about that, I can imagine it can't be hard for a mother to watch her 12 year old daughter making out with an older dude and then well, it's like she wants to leash her but in the wrong way, bleh well my opinion about Nancy hasn't changed much, I've decided to give her a fair chance this time. My sister might not agree much with it but oh well, that's her problem, I for once don't wanna have problems with my dad's wife anymore.

The fact that she called me an ungrateful brat just some nights ago made me really consider the fact that, I might be so.

In any case I'll just try to be nice to her all the time from now on, she really hasn't treated me bad, and it would be wrong of me now to be a bitch to her. So I'll also stop calling her a step bitch instead of a step mom. That's a big step from me, she wants us to be friends, to call her a friend instead of a stepmother, but right now I can't do that, this is just beginning, oh well.

And I'm going to Amsterdam in 3 more weeks! just 3 more weeks omgwtf haha and I'll have the best week of my life I'm sure.

I'm feeling a lot more confident about many things, especially my education, I thought I would be stuck in this country until I finished university, well turns out I don't have to stay here, I found such a great opportunity in China and I'm so taking it! Veronica and Norma are coming with me, so I won't be alone, which is a good thing.

Oh well, there aren't many things in my mind right now, I am really in a mood for reading, since I'm at my mother's house. It gets me all bookworm-ish again :) and I just so happen to have a great book with me :) YES! Dostoievsky is back and this time around it seems like he wants to stick with me haha, oh my brain has missed an occasional quick fuck ^^

I always say this but I'll try to update more often, just to give a general view on my life, I'll really like a timeline of my thoughts in a near future, what better way than to have it all written down haha

Oh, something else I should write about... say 3 weeks ago or so, some bastard decided it would be fun to stab my Lola... it ended up in having her paw chopped off, well, her entire leg for that matter, she can manage now though, she can climb on the bed again and well, it's still a bit hard for me to see her walk because she limps really bad, but she's pretty much the same fat sleepy glutton cat I love :))) <3 I love you Lolita ^^

oh well, in the meantime... wo qu zhong guo! :) wo ai wo pengyou, hen hao <3

Shut up :P my chinese is still very limited, and I don't have the hanzi installed on this computer so I can't type it properly, but that's bleh, I'll be dangerously close to Japan though ^^ I'll be in Shanghai woo ^^ zaijian ^^

Hey there :) I love you

^^'

So!
Many things have happened, most of which only concern me and someone else, who needless to say, is very special.
But on other news... OMG I found such a goood gossip about a cetain singer of a certain japanese band that made my underwear fall off haha honestly!

But anyway, what this entry is about has nothing to do with juicy celebrity secrets (*giggles madly*), but with my previous post actually. That description in spanish I wrote for a class, well... my teacher asked everyone to write one, and I turned mine one day late, so she asked me to read it for the class, and I got all embarassed, because Yahel kept telling me to use the proper tone for it, and the tone... is perverted, so she told the teacher about it and she got all excited about it, in the end I was blushing like hell and everyone kept encouraging me to read it.. *sigh* finally I read it, I didn't use a perverted entonation, but just my regular tone of voice, but my teacher really liked it, she said she REALLY liked it, I was proud from here to hell and back, I swear.

She corrected a couple of punctuation mistakes, oh I should also say, the version I posted was a draft, it was not exactly what I turned in, I switched a couple of sentences and so on, I might post the now corrected version, along with a translation, even if I have to put in a gender, oh well...

And I am a very happy girl right now :))))))))))))

So just this afternoon after pumpkin was gone I came up with something for a... shall we say 'how to write' class?
Anyway, it's in spanish, but I'll translate it, see how good I am at translating from spanish to english and not the other way around ^^

The original one:

Su cuerpo es terso en su totalidad, semejante a una simple hoja del material más fino, el mas ligero, que cubre por completo la sangre que escucho correr dentro de si. Siento en mi mano una fría sensación al deslizarla a lo largo de su piel, como si estuviera hecha de agua, en realidad, si entrecierro mis ojos por un momento, puedo ver mi rostro reflejado en la pureza de su cuero descubierto. Parece que está despertando. El latir de su corazón retumba contra mi mano, no puedo despegarla, con cada segundo que pasa siento como se acelera, siento como su respiración se vuelve irregular, puedo escuchar el aire mismo que penetra en su interior, aire que le brinda la fuerza necesaria para levantar la vista hacia mi. Sus ojos son rasgados, de un color ámbar profundo, casi letal, no parpadea, mantiene su mirada fija en mí. Por un momento siento la necesidad de retroceder, mi mano parece empezar a temblar, pero no daré cede al miedo, porque entiendo que no hay nada que temer. Un segundo después, me da un vistazo de su lengua, para mi sorpresa, es de un rojo intenso, da un capirotazo tan rápido que de haber parpadeado lo hubiese perdido, me da la impresión de que sonríe, sin embargo puede que se trate de una advertencia de su parte. ‘¡Aléjate!’ me grita sin articular sonido alguno, adrenalina fluye por mis venas como el más rápido veneno, esa familiar sensación de prohibición, quisiera rebelarme, quisiera aferrarme a esa piel, a esos ojos, a esa lengua y salir corriendo. De pronto termina mi visita, me gustaría regresar al serpentario pronto. ^^’

FIN

Okay now I can't translate that... to begin with, to translate to english I need to define the gender, and if I do that, I'll screw the ending... aww.... damn, well, guess if you don't speak spanish you'll just have to wonder ^^ it's really good, it's perverted, it's based on a true story, and it's damn funny haha, it is to me anyway, I had a blast writing it, oh well, that's all

Today I skipped school *giggles* but don't tell my dad, I only could do so because nobody's home except for me and my sister, and she won't blab unless she wants to suffer a slow painful death... bwahaha

Anyway, I am in a very good mood today :) that's all

I started thinking last night during a party... spanish people are 'hijos de puta' meaning of course, son of a bitch, but with more meaning than that, puta is the woman who sells her body for whatever reasons she may have, it is more like a hooker.

Us mexicans are not 'hijos de puta', we are 'hijos de la chingada' it is supposed to mean the same thing, son of a bitch, but la chingada literally means a really fucked woman, the one with the worst of luck and the one who has to claw her way out of every single situation and oh well, so then really, we call ourselves even more fucked up than spaniards, agh does that make sense?

Octavio Paz said that once, and my friend's boyfriend brought it up, I couldn't help thinking about it over and over again, because damn it's true! Ah well, just sharing an interesting point :P

So, September 15th, tonight it's the biggest party night in Mexico, Independence Day, hell yeah!!

So I came to Cuernavaca since Thursday to see my mother, she was kind of hoping we'd spend the night together, but she's going to her friend's house, and I well, I kinda like the couple, they're really nice and fun and all, but I just DESPISE their kids, they are idiotic to the extreme, ah anyway, I was doomed to spend the night with them... until a friend from the university told me she was coming to Cuernavaca as well for a party, and asked me to join her :)

Of course I agreed, she is the girl with the hot korean crush haha and she is so much fun, we get along perfectly since the first day of school, because she is also a crazyrabidfangirl, and we have a lot in common because of that :P

So they are picking me up around 8 pm I think, we are going to her friend's weekend house here (because Cuernavaca is Mexico City's favorite weekend spot) and it'll be a lot of fun I hope, much better than playing poker at my mother's friend's house, they don't smoke, and they barely even drink, so it would have been a rather dull place to spend Independence Day...

But now it wont be dull!! Ah I'm excited about this.

Oh on a side note, Lola had to be shaved from her back because the vet cut off those horrible dreadlocks that had grown near her tail (Oh, Lola is my mother's cat) haha and she smells so nice and it's all puffy and cute, but when my sister saw her, she yelled at her that she was disgusted by her, because of the shaved spot, and she said she even looked cancerous, and my poor Lola seemed to have felt so bad that she went over to the rooftop on the next house and hasn't moved at all! My pooor Lola!!

My sister should be ashamed of herself, cats can feel when you yell at them like that!! I love Lola with all my heart and it pains me to see her like that :((((((((((

And I also had the webcam FINALLY installed in my mother's computer so I could show her to pumpkin, and I can be all awesome, but I can't climb roofs :((( so he couldn't see Lola today, I hope tomorrow he can though, ahhh my poor poor cat

Anyway I also started drinking some beer since around noon and it's starting to have an effect on me, it's 6:30 pm, and I noticed because I got all excited about a ShuxYuki fic I just read, one AU about highschool, something rather ordinary but it completely got me all worked up, and it rarely ever happens with fics lately :P which reminds me, PUMPKIN! WE HAVE A FIC TO FINISH!! haha :P

Oh the sky looks lovely from my mother's window! :)

I've been re reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix for the 3rd time now, I just can't get as excited as I used to, even though I was really looking forward to rereading this volume even though it's far from being my favorite, *sigh* maybe it's because I'm SO looking forward to rereading the sixth volume (my definite favorite) and I need to get my facts straightened about the 5th book, oh well... ah and about japanese... I really need to start studying hard again, because I passed the test for the 4th level in the school in Mexico City and that means I skipped about 6 lessons from the book, and so I'm lost when it comes to verbs haha :P I don't know a lot of them the way I should, this weekend there will be no classes because of Independence Day, but next week I hope to be up to date, which is hard to say really, because I also need to get busy with french and chinese, I swear I still think chinese is easier than French, omg where do they get the strength to pronounce those R's!!!!!

Ah anyway, that's all really, my mom cooked pozole haha so that's gonna rule :P I'll update later!! :)

And I just have the worst luck in the world...
PERIOD CRAMPS!!
*cries*
on top of my damn infection I get period cramps! >.< they're just starting, I can feel them building up wahh I am about to cry, this is just the worst situation I can be in! Might as well get a heart attack and get this over with, shit double shit! >.<
PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN BEYOND PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN

... interesting

After japanese I came back home and collapsed, my throat was killing me and I had the worst fever ever, every single part of my body hurt so much and I fell asleep almost all day, woke up at 7pm and my dad got me some ramen, I feel like my head is going to explode, I feel so bad

I miss pumpkin :(((((((((
And today I watched that chinese movie SHOWER and I so cried and cried and cried until the maid came up to see what the hell was wrong with me and she fixed me a nice cup of tea but I kept on crying and crying oh well
Good news is I actually understood some words in chinese, it isn't so hard to understand at all! The only hard part is the pronunciation, hah like that isn't much.
School is fine as well, I mean some classes are really fucked up and I dont understand why I take some classes with people in their last semester, but oh well, ah tomorrow is my first japanese class in Mexico City and so I'm looking forward to that.
I also learned some letters of the korean alphabet, it is disturbingly easy, honestly, and chinese is also going great, lol funny how I think french is a lot harder than all of those :P
and I miss pumpkin :((((((((((

A friend from school has a huge crush on a hot korean guy who opened for BLOOD not long ago, I hope they get married and stuff bwahaha *cough*and open fr BLOOD again*cough*

My throat hurts a bit right now, so I guess I won't be smoking tomorrow, ah well maybe I'll stop again, who knows, I'm not so stressed lately, except for the constant fighting with my sister, that's becoming more often as time goes by, just today a friend of hers, who's also an exgirlfriend of mine is staying over the night, and I just don't like her at all, and my sister started spitting fire when we talked about that.

Today I skipped two classes and went to have breakfast/coffee with the girl who's got a crush on the hot korean guy, it was pretty cool, definitely the funniest part of the day, but that's just because pumpkin's gone :(((((((((((

I listened to SIGH a lot in the morning, oh it's like I listen to Gackt less and less with each passing day, aww my poor Gacchan must be so damn sad, ah well, he better get over it soon :P

I was reading some japanese texts today to see if I still could :P haha since I hadn't read anything for months, I've been too busy with chinese lately that I wondered if would start pronouncing the characters differently or mix them up, but so far so good I think, but I can't say much until tomorrow, I hope I haven't lost my touch haha XB

And I guess I'll go to sleep now, tomorrow, after japanese, is going to be a DAMN BORING day, so I'll just spend the hours either reading or practicing my caligraphy, ah I've become such an 'asian languages geek' lately huh

Bet you didn't see that coming before XD
So well, mata ne

Mkay so in the second party I only got to take 1 picture, I didn't know it wasn't allowed and so they saw me taking one picture and threatened to take away my camera, so I stopped, anyway, until I figure out how to transfer the 35 pics from my cellphone, this is as good as it gets :P

URL for the close up
http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a250/funeralbitch/bloodlive.jpg

URL for the full size
http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a250/funeralbitch/PICT0024-1.jpg

agh and it wasn't even a good picture, btw, notice how there are at the most 50 dudes, I was the last one in the back! (I didn't feel like jumping around mexican vampires that evening)

So much happened in such a short amount of time!
The japanese visual k/gothic something band BLOOD came to Mexico for two shows in August 11th and 12th, my friend Norma had come from Cuernavaca to see the show and she stayed with me the whole 2 days.
It was fucking crazy of course ^^
At first, on the 11th, the show was supposed to start at 6:30, so we arrived at 6 sharp and got in line with the rest, there were about 300 dudes at the most, so it wasn't such a long line after all.
We were all SO excited, and there were strange dudes everywhere!
Here comes the bad part now, they had us waiting in line for over 3 hours!
They had some problems with the organization and rumors were flying like crazy, according to a bunch of girls, it was all so late because Kiwamu was in a bad mood, I seriously doubt it though, and if he was on a bad mood it was because of the delay, and not the other way around.

Oh well, the concert started around 9:30 and my friend and I were the last ones to enter the tiny hall because we had been so tired that we went to get some sodas, so when we got into the hall, I scooted over to the front rows and when BLOOD came out (looking fine as ever) I was at the front in the middle. There were some really crazy fans, for example this baldie dude who kept yelling at Fuki that he loved him deeply lol

The sound was terrible though, and omg suddenly it all got turned off and the band members started looking at each other and before they knew it, the music had started again, including the vocals, so everyone saw it was playback!! :o MY POOR FUKI he was so embarassed, immediately after that, they turned off the vocals on the playback thingie and he started singing for real, aw my poor poor boy
Anyway he kept getting close to the audience so everyone could touch him, and I got my hands all over him for a looong time lol, I touched his face, neck, naked chest, arms and legs omg he is so fit!

I touched the rest too but not so much, specially when Kiwamu started sucking on his finger and reaching out for the audience where they were all fighting to get their hands on his finger eww that was really ew, if it had been Gackt, ok but it was Kiwamu lol

I met his girlfriend too, aw they are so in love ^^
I have my reasons to believe she was his girlfriend anyway.

So they were gonna sign autographs that day, but my friend and I decided to do it the next day instead, because it was a two day concert, the next day I was supposed to go back to Cuernavaca to take my japanese test, but when I logged in, some 30 minutes before I had to leave, I checked on myspace and they had this bulletins saying that BLOOD's members were gonna be selling the tickets themselves because they felt so bad and they had problems with the organization of the thingie.

So I didn't go to Cuernavada :P my friend, my sister and I went to the place where they were selling htem, which was this huge garden with statues, real nice, and they were there, sitting and chatting while singing autographs, sadly they said the show had been cancelled, and that they had suffered great loss, so they asked the fans to please purchase their merchandise. Of course I did, I bought a cd with dvd and a poster, I had this portrait for Fuki, it's the best I've drawn I'm sure, so I gave it to him and I was shaking badly, the three of them saw it and they all went 'OH SUGOI' and omg I'm gonna dream of that for the next 20 years I swear ^^ Fuki was really happy and flattered aww and the rest joked about the jaw being crooked like his :P and aww my poor boy they were making fun of his jaw lol, anyway they signed my stuff and I gave Fuki my email just in case.
My sister asked if he could take a picture of him with me and my friend, and he agreed, so I sat next to Fuki and my silly sister went 'oh, she speaks japanese' and Fuki stared at me and my only reaction was to shake my head 'no' in embarassment and then he looked down at me (because my head was bent) and he went 'konnichiwa' all sweet and fatherlike ^^ awww *heart* and Kaede said 'you're welcome' without reason, I caught them speaking to each other in japanese and Kaede was complaining about being cold aww my poor boy, and then Kiwamu came and sat next to me while I was sitting next to Fuki aww it was OH SO SEXY!

My friend said we should go, there was nothing else we could do there, but I refused, so we stayed there for a couple of hours just watching them interacting with some other fans and themselves (they weren't wearing makeup, so that was strange yet oh SO SEXY) until someone offered their house and they agreed to play there!!

In the end, even my sister agreed to go to the private party/concert thingie, there weren't more than 60 dudes there, so it was very private, and in the middle of it, there was this blackout lol aww my poor boys, they have terrible luck when it comes to Mexico lol

In the end they were signing autographs again butonly if you purchased more merchandise, and I had already spent around 40 USD so I wasn't gonna anymoer :P so we left, and that was the last time I saw them, my sister and I waved goodbye and Kaede waved back all cute ^^ Fuki was trying to lift up his pants again and Kiwamu was being mean to some dude who kept yelling at him that he loved him lol I bet it's not so cool to have some weird mexican fans tell him how cute he is :P

It's a shame I could only take one picture during the private show, because some girl came flying at me to tell me I couldn't take pictures. When I got home and watched the dvd, I was surprised to see how many places they had played in around the world, and how many people had come to see them, in the end, they played like some amateur local band in an empty garage in the worst area in Mexico City :P and I was one of the few who waws there :P even my dad went to check them out, he thought they were creepy, oh but my sister really enjoyed it, she's a fan now :) so I'm happy for her.

All in all, it was a good weekend for me and my friend, and a bad weekend for BLOOD :( I only do hope they return to Mexico one day :( because from what's happened to them now, it doesn't seem like they will...

I'll upload the picture of the private gig as soon as my dad returns from his flight with the camera.

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Sunday:

We went to visit family, most specially my cousin, my favorite cousin, she's one of the greatest friendsI've ever had, my dad said that if I wanted, for my birthday, he would ask her to come with us to Vancouver ^^

I am thrilled about that, sad thing is, I won't get to see my mommy until god knows when :(
I'm still on a BLOOD high ^^